Ella was diagnosed with Syringomyelia and taught me more in her short life about how to live life to the fullest, love with all your heart, and learn from each other.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Friends going through what takes me back a year ago
I have had two friends recently learn their cavaliers have SM. As heartbreaking it is, I have seen the outpouring of support and comfort they have received from their friends on facebook. I have met people after Ella's surgery and diagnosis but anytime I post something about her, all these friends come together to show their concern and it makes things so much better. Whether they have cavaliers with sm/cm or perfectly healthy, they are friends for good times and bad.
This past year has been filled with ups and downs but I have developed friendships with people all over the world and that is truly amazing. Virtual friends are awesome but I have developed friendships from Facebook with people close by. I know I need to sometimes get out of my "cavalierish" world but Ella became my number one. I feel like these friendships have made me forget what it was like the first time I started this blog and knew no one. It was because of this, that I got introduced to other forums and feel like I know all these people because of one person reaching out to me.
I was reading my post where I was so excited that from a forum, I had someone say I could call her because she lived in NC. I was going to a friends to celebrate Ella's birthday and it was like I won the lottery. I have talked about SM so many times that I forgot that moment. The moment that I felt my prayers were answered and I could talk to someone who knows more and is going through what I was.
So when these friends on Facebook came to me scared and nervous and not knowing what to do, I should have remembered how it was for me. It was the most lonely, scary, emotional time in my life and I did not think I would make it. Ella is my everything and without her well... I don't want to think of it.
So I wanted to tell everyone that I am thinking of you all and we do keep you in our prayers. Sometimes I just have to stop and remember the day when someone reached me. It was like light came to me in a shadow of darkness.