My sister would sing a lullaby to her son every night before he went to sleep. To me Ella was my “fur” baby so every night I sang the same song my sister did to Ella.
Good Night Ella
Good Night Ella
Good Night Ella
It’s time to go to sleep
Just a simple melody but I sang this to her since she was a puppy and it was our bonding time. If I started to sing this she would come from the other room if there were others around, and come to my bed. People would say no! Not fair I want her out here, but she was my little girl. Her eyes would become heavy as she would snuggle up to me (usually taking up all the bed) and we would go to sleep.
On May 2nd, I sang this the last time to her as I held her paw to join others in Rainbows Bridge. I can barely talk about it because tears are flowing now, but my bed is now empty. I actually can’t sleep in my bed still because it feels so empty. It’s like a hole where Ella was so I have only slept in my bed a couple of times since that day. I usually will sleep on the sofa. I try to close my eyes and feel her. One night my face felt on fire from all the tears I cried that I started to think was it her licking them away? Was that what I was feeling? I don’t know but it made me feel better and eventually I was able to go to sleep. Maybe now she is the one singing to me or comforting me because I know deep down inside she is with me still.
“He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.” Author unknown
About Me
- AnnieMac
- The moment I first held Ella, my world changed. She has touched so many people giving love as a therapy dog but now it is time to give back. No matter how hard she tries to give, her eyes show sadness and pain.
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awww Anne, that is such a touching post. U make me cry... I completely understand the bond u had (and have) with Ella as I feel the same about my monster...
I hope you are able to sleep in your bed again soon...
Anne, I am so sorry about Ella. I had no idea she went to the rainbow bridge. I can't imagine how much you're hurting but and happy you have Elton in your life now. My precious spencer was diagnosed with MVD this summer and I know we're in for a rough time since he also has COMS. You were a terrific mum to Ella and she was very lucky to have you. Hugs from me, Spencer and our new Cavalier, Clancy, a rescue/failed foster from CKCSC Rescue.
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